I'm afraid to leave, afraid to be left behind
could you wait for me, please let me take my time
Cos i'm afraid to realize that my little life didn't mean sh*t in the scheme of things please dry my eyes
When the tears rolling down my face feeling ashamed
cos theoretically I don't know why I'm afraid
ain't nothing I can do to stop it when it's that day
I wish I could fully feel what's easy to say

I lay my life in your hands tonight,
if I live or die you decide
I'm at your mercy
at your command and your service
I lay my life in your hands tonight,
if I live or die you decide
I'm at your mercy
at your command and your service

I try to get up like I just beat cancer,
not taking anything for granted on the ride
it will be what we make it my mantra
on repeat as I close my eyes
So high speed highway high five
if I said I was ready I lied
I want this way to much
tell the ambulance back up they got the wrong guy
Cus I made no peace of mind
I'm not done with the loved ones I leave behind
we were supposed to change the world
making our voices heard good over evil right
I refuse to gracefully fade away
my friends on the other side you'll have to wait
like somehow it was up to me but only thing i control is how I spend today

I lay my life in your hands tonight,
if I live or die you decide
I'm at your mercy
at your command and your service
I lay my life in your hands tonight,
if I live or die you decide
I'm at your mercy
at your command and your service

I got goals to achieve and stuff
I gotta work out
got sh*t to do make things right before I burn out
but my defence is gone you invaded me
fenceless I'm embracing it
guard down and my hans are tied
can only pray for you to treat me right
see through me no matter what I'm wearing
but I'm ready to roll
and my shell is peeled off I'm transparent
just letting it go

feel so good letting go
feel so good letting go
don't it feel so good letting go

I lay my life in your hands tonight,
if I live or die you decide
I'm at your mercy
at your command and your service
I lay my life in your hands tonight,
if I live or die you decide
I'm at your mercy
at your command and your service