[00:03.91]It's a tired fascination with everything I'm not
[00:08.65]And wasting nights wondering
[00:11.51]Trying to figure out
[00:14.17]Maybe if I'm quiet
[00:16.36]Maybe if I'm light
[00:18.65]Maybe I'll be something
[00:21.3]Someone you would like
[00:22.68]If I'm smaller and
[00:24.80]If I'm different
[00:27.0]Just a little less
[00:29.67]Would you love me?
[00:31.54]If I wasn't this
[00:34.67]With some bigger lips
[00:36.90]And some smaller hips
[00:39.38]Would you love me?
[00:41.79]It's an overdone obsession
[00:44.40]With chasing what I'm not
[00:46.51]And something I've been hiding
[00:49.12]Space I'm taking up
[00:51.25]And slouching in my shoulders
[00:53.86]And curving in my back
[00:55.65]Afraid that all this space I'm in
[00:58.56]Is just too much to have
[01:00.14]If I'm smaller and
[01:02.24]If I'm different
[01:04.89]Just a little less
[01:07.29]Would you love me?
[01:09.30]If I wasn't this
[01:11.72]With some bigger lips
[01:14.55]And some smaller hips
[01:16.89]Would you love me?
[01:18.71]And I can't change what just stays the same
[01:27.36]So I keep trying to love me how I'm made
[01:37.80]I know I'm hating on my mother
[01:40.43]I'm disrespecting dad
[01:42.55]By spending nights trying
[01:45.18]To change the way I am
[01:47.87]I'm tearing at my structure
[01:50.26]Pulling at my skin
[01:52.32]Just wishing I was smaller and different
[01:56.18]And I'm spitting on the people who love me just like this
[02:01.61]Who don't wish that I was smaller or less of anything
[02:06.46]And I'm yelling in my silence
[02:08.45]So make the voices stop
[02:12.13]Let me sleep in quiet
[02:13.73]Not thinking that I ought to be
[02:16.44]Smaller and different
[02:20.29]Just a little less
[02:22.66]So you can love me
[02:25.1]With none of this
[02:27.46]And some bigger lips
[02:29.72]And some smaller hips
[02:32.23]So you can love me
[02:33.97]And I can't change what just stays the same
[02:42.69]But I keep trying to love me how I'm made
[02:52.88]How I'm made
[02:57.48]How I'm made
[03:01.72]How I'm made
[03:06.97]If I'm smaller and
[03:09.59]If I'm different
[03:11.87]Just a little less
[03:14.30]Would you love me?
[03:16.54]If I wasn't this
[03:19.29]With some bigger lips
[03:21.55]And some smaller hips
[03:24.3]Would you love me?